Prove your strength!

The moment you have to try to PROVE your strength, or ability to fight with someone, is the moment you start to fail...

As a practicing Martial Artist, people always ask, how many people I can beat, or how strong my techniques are etc. If I sound like I am always hesistant and refrain from answering because, I honestly don't know. I can easily say, oh yea, I can beat up 2 guys attacking me, or I can knock you out in one punch. But in reality anyone can do those things. Or if i am asked, how many pieces of wood I can break? I mean, again I am hesistant because I haven't tried nor competed in breaking a stack of wood or cinderblocks together. The moment I have to try to prove my strength in this sense to show someone I can do it, is not the essence of why I practice this ART. NOt to disregard the sport aspect, when it comes to sport or competition, there is a quantitative and qualitative measurement of strength etc.
That requires a totally NEW mindset to approaching what is being asked.

But as a human being living in the world, expressing myself in an ART that I love, requires that one must humble oneself, and not have a NEED to prove ones worth. Practicing Martial Arts, at least for me, helps me to attain my Self Actualization, and acknowledge my Self Worth. Because of That I don't NEED to prove myself to anyone, but myself...and by practicing I already accept and acknowledge myself.

I also acknowledge what I am capable of doing, and what I am not capable of doing. This is why I continue to practice.
Not to be able to have enough strength to beat someone up, but to be able to learn to control myself so that I won't have to beat someone up.
Obviously practical reasons, blah blah blah, violent world etc. By practicing to learn how to control my body and my self, I can remain calm in situations that may seem dangerous, and learn to just adapt to my environment based on what knowledge I have, and move on with the least amount of effort, and be efficient in my movements.



...

But my ego likes it when people boost me as like a Son Goku type character.....

(That is the goal though, become a legendary super saiyan)

Diamonds are Forever

My Friendships are diamonds.

Life Keeps on Going!

This animated short has been a favourite since I saw it in 2009.
Such Beautiful animation and theme. But the thing the touches my soul the most, is the sound. The music really just sets the tone, and really reflects the essence of love, loss, loneliness, and the will to carry on.

At first glance the water can seem to represent a theme of global warming and its threat (Which it COULD be, upon further analysis). But reading more about it, the purpose of this film I think, is that we just have to keep on moving on with our lives, as our wonderful MOMENTS and MEMORIES get washed away, by time, so swiftly.

We still have an opportunity to revisit them, our memories, to remind us of our will to continue living.

Le Maison en Petit Cubes, the House of Small Cubes, is such a beautiful piece of work.

I can feel the Japanese-esque theme,
and felt the need to revisit this animation beginning this new year/new day.

Remember

All Humans have a desire
an
innate nature to want to be remembered.

It is the only way to continue to
live on this earth,
through other people
's thoughts

Some Erect monuments
to concretize their existence
to have others reflect
even if for a brief moment,
on their legacy.

Thrust
your thoughts
onto the world,
'ye Mighty and despair.

Suspend

time
so that you may continue
to
affect
me...

I
am the immortal
thought
that will hold on
-to your memories

to bequeath
the antiquity
of your quintessential
existence

I Will
to

remember you
your legacy
your life
your existence

It is the gift and the curse
of the poet.

The one who wants to remember
your affection,

and be remembered
for being the one who
remembers

You.

Knowledge, Knowledge, Knowledge!

You don’t know what you don’t know,
Act like you know nothing,
In order to understand everything.

Striving for Perfection!

I Live to Love, Because I Love to Live!

What am I really doing?
in Pursuit of Happiness, throughout all the strife, my goal as a human being is to find a perfection within myself that will satisfy me fully. And the only way that I can satisfy myself is when I try to satisfy others...

But the fact that I can never be satisfied, because I am imperfect, is a cause of my ...sense of satisfaction.

What gives me most strength everyday, is my understanding that I know that when I wake up people love me. Not to sound like a pretentious jerk, but I can say with Confidence and JOY that I am blessed to have people in my life who genuinely do care about my well being and my existence.

What Saddens me the most, and is a cause of my drama and uneasiness toward life, is that there might be some people in this world who aren't lucky enough to HAVE anyone, or who are in a position where they feel they HAVE NO ONE!

Even when I feel alone, I am never Lonely.

What I want out of this life is a meaningful world where LOVE is in the air...all over, simultaneously, ubiquitous.
A sense of PERFECTION in a World of IMPERFECTION...


Because isn't that what Love truly is in the end?

Finding perfection in things that are imperfect?
That is Why I Love, and will Never STOP Loving

YOU!


Love will always be close to my heart...

(Directed for Everyone, and No one)

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There is no Good or Evil.
Only You and Me...

Vision of Deadalus. but Acting like Icarus

I feel like I am at a moment of suspension.
I want to soar High in the clouds, And
am confident in my ability to take flight.

What is it that draws me closer to the sun, that makes me drop
down to the ocean, and drown?
I know better than this...


Do I purposely try to fly high and call attention to myself to be shot down?

I've been cultivated in a world where aspirations of flight is possible, and even encouraged.  But the moment I arm my wings and take flight, I am immediately targeted to be brought back down to reality.
There's only so much hits one can take, but I still want to fly...

but
I guess,
Sometimes I need to crash into the water,
to cleanse me of my wounds...

?






Is it a front that I am in flight?  am I already stuck in the ocean pretending to fly?

Why Can't There Be Love?

Track on Repeat!

Just loving the upbeat positive vibes I get from this track. Even though it's a 'sad' track...

Oh Silly World! Why can't there be Love???

Even though it may seem Unrequited, KEEP LOVING ANYWAY!!!
That's the only way to break this cycle of non-love!

The Meaning of Life!

Part 1.

This interlude represents my feelings toward myself, my life, and the world.

(When I know, I'll tell you)

SUBLIME!

Do we live in a God-less world?

Gymnopedie
Gymnopaedia

is what created me...

Life

Unconcealed beauty
marks of a God

Imaginations fury
seeking homage

Author of elegance,
organized redemption

Infinite growth,
consecutive shapes
emerging telos,
Pi

World creating words,
creating worlds
and earth

Ultimate, timeless,
spaceless
breathless,
everywhere and nowhere immortalizing
thought

Distinguishable faces
resembling death.
Created to discern-

Poetry

Humble Egoism?

I Hate myself because of the fact that I Love myself.

Meritocracy

There is no such thing as a GOOD Soul anymore...unless you've got credentials.

What is Art?

The Creations of Man!

as the Externalization of the soul...
(expression from the God within)...

to unconceal the Truth about...Everything?


...
"Art is truth setting itself to work"
-Heidegger

Inspiration of The Villain

I've been COOKING this up for the past...couple years...
This is a strong piece of who I am...I feel... as a lot of the stuff I wrote for this piece have been the BUILT up expressions of rage, anger, happiness, and curiosity.
I tried to be as Honest and true to myself and however I come across, this is how I truly feel...
The Luigi Garde Manifesto if you will

Expect a story to be created by the time I graduate...

The Story/Tragedy of My love

Does anyone have someone they love? How bout someone they hate?


• Omnia Vincit Amor “Love Conquers All”
• Main (tragic/anti) Hero….Code name is Love
• Love kills slow
• Love actually Hates Love, but understands its concept
• Love Hates Despair…sacrifices himself to preserve the world... or destroy it…
• Love is Lonely
• Love is one sided
• Love is Unique
• Love is shared
• Love is untouched
• Love is invincible
• Love is fragile
• Love Hurts
• Love Heals
• Love is Painful
• Love is Joyful
• Love is Hopeful
• Love is Unrequited
• Love is Whole
• Love is in pieces
• Love kills to preserve
• Love is Truth
• Love is Tragedy
• Love is Bliss
• Love is Genuine
• Love Genuinely feels that what he does is for the benefit of each individual, giving them the maximum pleasure they can possibly achieve, even if it means death…because they no longer have to suffer the torments of facing life

Love is Life
Love is Death
Love is the maxim that remains when there is nothing else

• The sword that kills is the sword that gives life
• In the end Love DOES conquer all…..or does it…


BOOM!!!!

“If you stare into the abyss long enough, the abyss stares back at (through) you”
- Friedrich Nietzsche

• What if I am at the bottom of the abyss, and I begin to stare UP toward the exit…the light shines faintly, yet teases me, I AM the abyss
• I try to find a way up, out of this abyss, but I am engulfed in pure darkness, and cannot find something to cling onto
• I Just become a crab in a bucket… no way to get out
• That is Love


“Human Contradictions are the motivations for us to live…to TRY to prove one side wrong.”
→Contradictions motivate life. Don’t believe me? Then prove me wrong.

Love is Hate, only reversed

Hate is Power
Hate is Strength
Hate is Motivation
Hate is Willing
Hate is Committed
Hate is Helpful
Hate is Efficient
Hate Works Hard
Hate will do what she has to, to get Love out of the way
Hate will Kill
Hate will Preserve
Hate will Give Birth to Life, and Love
Hate will Inspire
Hate will Devour
Hate’s main purpose is to torment
Hate is in Constant Pain, trying to give others pleasure
Hate is Love…the love to torment



Hate is the Hero, that Inspires Love
Love is the anti-hero, or the super-villain

Hate is the darkness in the abyss, that separates the exit light from the bottom.


Love is Murdered by Hate.
But Love lives on. Love can Never die. As long as Hate still lives, Love will always be around. Love was spawned through hate.



“Definition of a super villain- a killer who loves children, one who is well skilled in destruction as well as building”
- MF DOOM

Be Frugal
Be Efficient
Be Gentle
Be Hard
Be Strong, by Being Weak
Achieve Everything
Hope for Nothing
Aspire to Dreams
Work hard to Reach them
The Journey of a Thousand paces, must begin with One
Live for Death
Live in the mindset that you are mortal
Mortality will drive you to survive and want to live

There is no stupidity, there is no Not enough time
There is only Effort, and Effortless
Put in constant Effort so that it becomes effortless
If there is no effort, then Nothing will be achieved

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Nothing is the negative of Something
You cannot have something without Nothing

Nothing will be the driving force to achieve Something
Something makes people forget about Nothing
Nothing may be forgotten
But Nothing cannot be ignored
If Nothing is ignored, then Something becomes Nothing

The space that is empty becomes the space that is filled
If the items that fill the space lose value, the space remains empty…


July 1, 2008
2:51am

I just realized…
If everyone in the world acted like me, would it be a better place?
Yeah probably.
I hate to sound cocky and boastful, like im the Greatest Human Being alive.
But I mean the attitude and openness to things….

Basically what im trying to think about is if people felt more inclined to open their minds, really Think about the way others feel and act on the MORAL RULE OF LIFE
“TREAT OTHERS THE WAY YOU WISH TO BE TREATED” then we truly will have a better place.

But if everyone acted like me, I would feel very bored and not special…
Id be the loneliest guy in earth….
No Life.

So I realize
“I cannot change the world.
But I can change the way you look at it”
LG

(THINKING its my own original thought….but NAH, how can I put a patent on sentences and THOUGHTS which is probably running through the minds of PEOPLE throughout the world at this very second…. I guess im just feeling happy that I THOUGHT these words and concepts at this particular time.


Hate lacks something that only Love holds. The ability to LOVE hate. Hate cannot love…Love can LOVE Hate…who knows hate may in turn Learn to LOVE love.
***I Hate “Hate”! This is what drives my Love


…doomed love and a vindictive fury.

“no matter how many of you who don’t have the courage to bark alone gather, it’s useless.”
“no matter how many people who don’t have the courage to bark alone gather together, it’s still useless.”
-Mugen Samurai Champloo episode 9, Beatbox Bandits


"The man who is at the peak of his success, and the man who has just failed are in exactly the same position. Each must decide what he will do next."
-Jigoro Kano

“Ichigo, what's the difference between a King and his horse? ...I don't mean kiddy sh*t like 'One's a person and one's an animal' or 'One has two legs and one has four'. If their form, ability, and power were exactly the same, why is it that one becomes the King and controls the battle, while the other becomes the horse and carries the King?! There's only one answer. INSTINCT!!! In order for identical beings to get stronger and gain the power they need to become King, they must search for more battles and power! They thirst for battle, and live to mercilessly crush, shred, and slice their enemies! Deep, deep within our bodies lies the honed instinct to kill, to slaughter! But YOU don't have that! You don't have those pure, basic instincts! You fight with your brain. You try to defeat your enemies with your logic! And it doesn't work! You're trying to cut them with a sheathed sword! That is why you're weaker than me, Ichigo! ...I don't know about Zangetsu, but to I refuse to carry a King who's weaker than me and get cut to ribbons with him. If you're weaker than me, then I'll destroy you, and take your crown for myself.”
-Hollow Ichigo Bleach ep.124


“Love/Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hatred, and hatred leads to suffering.”
-Yoda



March 2009 (after procrastinating for my 3 English papers)


My moment of weakness…
• Critically assess my life, the path I am taking. What if tomorrow I make a left turn? Become more assertive, less of a gentleman, sacrifice some of my morals to get the JOB done…make money a priority for now coz in this world u need money to survive, I will help people when I am rich…treat girls less of a human being…well not really but like impose my superiority as a MALE, as noted in history, and plant my seed all over…what if I exercised my own sense of justice in the world? As a martial artist I have skills that can allow me to defend myself in particular situations, or create situations that may be difficult for others…what If I became a vigilante? What if I didn’t respect everyone who is RUDE DISRESPECTFUL and HAVE SUCH BAD ATTITUDES toward me, my family and or anyone I know. What if I did something that will force them to LEARN to respect people???
• Good karma, and bad karma…I still believe in….but exercising my ability to try and FIX the worlds will not result in BAD karma, because I am doing it for the better, am I not??? The human is such a complex being, there is too much subjective aspects to us…what if I looked at humans more objectively? Because we are all human, no matter how smart I may seem/be, or not smart, there is no difference between me and the next person… the smartest and or most civilised people in the world are no different than the not so civilized and not so rational people…
• What if I didn’t respect my religion as much as I do, what if I became more secular/agnostic…I’ve learned a lot of things regarding religion, and critically assessing them through what I have read/scene/heard/witnessed…there is so much MORE I DON’T KNOW, but from what I DO KNOW, I can asses certain things…what if I became Scientologist? What if I devoted my life to the dealings of satan/Lucifer…not in an EVIL type of way, but in the way that I defy God, because God doesn’t seem to be helping us, so I exercise my own right and power to do something for the benefit of the world…I be a Rebel to the monarch, to the system…(I sort of AM a rebel to the system now…well I’d like to THINK I AM…but I am not so much…I am still in that POSER stage, not a TRUE rebel because I am afraid of not conforming… there are a lot of repercussions if I do rebel, and I don’t become as engaged in the system as much as I believe…don’t want to go to prison just yet…
• I am just so tired…
• Sometimes I think, am I just too tired to be who I am? Sure I may have fixed some battles, stopped some conflicts…but the Battles never end…nothing ever ends…



"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed."
-Albert Einstein

"He who joyfully marches to music rank and file, has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would surely suffice. This disgrace to civilization should be done away with at once. Heroism at command, how violently I hate all this, how despicable and ignoble war is; I would rather be torn to shreds than be a part of so base an action. It is my conviction that killing under the cloak of war is nothing but an act of murder."
-Albert Einstein


I Love EVERYONE! But in order to do so, I must Hate myself.
I can’t even help myself, why do I help others? Why do others get a chance to be happy and I don’t???
But I am Happy...
...Only Built 4 Cuban Linx indeed...


So much (music)- Madlib → Song of my SOUL! My Life In a Nutshell…

My Ode to Nothing!

Nothing is always forgotten
Its presence, or lack thereof
Becomes bullied by Something

When Something sees that
Nothing is there
Something wants it
Something craves it!

The Abhorrence of Nothing
Overpowered by Something

Something always wants
What Nothing has
The endless cycle
Of occupying space and no space

Nothing has lived longer than Something

Before life, before time,
Nothing
Not even respect.

Lest we forget
That it is through Nothing
That we can have Something
Nothing uses the spaces which Something does not want,

Yet

MUSIC IS MY LIFE!!!!

How can this sound penetrate my ears
in such beautifully rendered rhythmic patterns?
The musical genius
Producer
transmits alluring reverberation

boom boom, boom boom...

Inflicting
deep emotions
straight into my soul.
The beat of my heart
flows parallel
with the beats of my life.

Like the poet laureate deeming for glory incognito
bleeding ink on the page
composing meter
rhyme, and free verse
in thoughts, in sound

I take note,
of each precious
Note
entering my brain.

Every step I take,
brings me Miles closer to my destination,
every sound I hear,
from this musical inclination
that yearns within me,

Establishes melody
through the wake of my day.
My urge to express my innermost thoughts,
become explicated
when these invisible waves
transported by my ears,
Ignite my imagination

I love music!

The way it sends me spine tingling sensations
which decodes its glorious declarations
of beat, and sound
I love life!
I receive pleasure in the pauses
between each note
allowing me time to appreciate
for a nanosecond,
the sound it produced.
This is how I live.

Breathing in every moment
appreciating the pauses
between each breath
so that I can recognize each note
composed in my work,
of daily living.
The harmony, gentleness, and flow,
that the cars, people, and nature
Dictate,
Transcend
the realm of this globe.

All these pleasures I see around me
resonate strongly within me

Trumpet horn blast
from people driving too fast
to the cries of joy
from the Ink drenched paper people employ
to Saxophone sounds in hallways underground
lovely blown

Life is what you make it
I make music.

Music is my life

Signed,
The Poet


re: john robinson- Black Gold



Stacey Epps- Deep

I LOVE GOD!

But am infatuated by Satan.


Spirit vs. Physical.

The Dichotomy of the universe continues.

Satan was created by God,

therefore indirectly I still Love God, through Satan?

Can this be possible? or is this Blasphemous?

God As A Cloud!

Something that is there, but really not.
Something I can almost experience and fathom,
but really not.
Something that when I look up makes me feel happy,
but really not.
Something that seems soft, comforting and can touch,
but really not.
Something that rains down, causing ruckus, disasters, depression, lightning, hurricanes, wind,
to feed, and bring life...
but really?
not...
Something I strive to be at the level of, to be able to fly with, or stay with up high, feeling the comfort in the serene and peacefulness of the sky, as opposed to the problem filled disasters down on earth...
but really not.


How do you see God?

(that is if you choose to create an image of that which is called "God")

The Road to Hell is Paved With Good Intentions!

good intentions...I feel like i want to save the world...by doing so I may end up hurting people...or going down the path of "darkness"...

it starts with a Righteous good intention that sets the journey to the abyss...I want to help others...i must be stronger...i must do x to get to y by any means.....Ends Justify the means?

NO...it should never be...Means to the end are what matters....every single person and thing matters! We are all MATTER...

how do i fix this...how do I take the left turn and get out...

Just live my life...just focus on me...

This is the paradox of my soul...our souls...

Save others to save ourselves...(e.g. Heaven, Jannah, Paradise)...
But in reality hurting others to save others...because we impose ourselves into others...
but is it a bad thing?



The sword that kills, is the sword that gives life...